"Clocky"
Is this a sign of how incredible lazy we have all become? ...Or just the coolest thing ever!
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Monday, December 19, 2005
....I want to be a star.
"I'd rather be a could-be if I cannot be an are; because
a could-be is a maybe who is reaching for a star. I'd
rather be a has-been than a might-have-been, by far;
for a might-have-been has never been, but a has was
once an are."
-- Milton Berle
a could-be is a maybe who is reaching for a star. I'd
rather be a has-been than a might-have-been, by far;
for a might-have-been has never been, but a has was
once an are."
-- Milton Berle
Salsa!
Hurray for exams being finished!!!
And hurray for honours. Suprise! Or maybe not if I feel like flattering myself, my honours work turned out - in the words of Dr Joe - "Superb". The presentation went really well, I looked "smart and sexy" in my suit (thanks Jack), and I handled my defense very well, or so I am told - parts of it are blacked out in my mind, hehe! ...that said, I still need to get in gear and show my face at the office soon.... those grad students and post-docs think I'm slacker enough as it is - not a fair impression!
But! School work is not the purpose of this post. Last night we celebrated the completion of exams, and it was just a fantastic night! We Salsa'd and Samba'd and had so much fun. After few lessons "white-boy-style" even the self proclaimed non-dancers were dancing!
"You gotta hold your arms in close like THIS!"
I think that what made everything so fun was how refreshing it was to be spending time with new people, and a new ...thinking style I guess. It was about going out and being sexy and dancing.... And by "being sexy", I'm referring more to what you feel as a woman than what you see as a guy. The dancing is sexy, but without the feeling like you're actually having sex on the dance floor. As I said - refreshing. I wanted to party until the sun came up, though it might of meant losing my shoes!
Well, that said, it is now my decision to partake in some salsa lessons. I am enlisting the Brazilians for this, and it had better be good - I need something to show off at Ãno Nuevo 2006 !
Beijos,
ciao!
And hurray for honours. Suprise! Or maybe not if I feel like flattering myself, my honours work turned out - in the words of Dr Joe - "Superb". The presentation went really well, I looked "smart and sexy" in my suit (thanks Jack), and I handled my defense very well, or so I am told - parts of it are blacked out in my mind, hehe! ...that said, I still need to get in gear and show my face at the office soon.... those grad students and post-docs think I'm slacker enough as it is - not a fair impression!
But! School work is not the purpose of this post. Last night we celebrated the completion of exams, and it was just a fantastic night! We Salsa'd and Samba'd and had so much fun. After few lessons "white-boy-style" even the self proclaimed non-dancers were dancing!
"You gotta hold your arms in close like THIS!"
I think that what made everything so fun was how refreshing it was to be spending time with new people, and a new ...thinking style I guess. It was about going out and being sexy and dancing.... And by "being sexy", I'm referring more to what you feel as a woman than what you see as a guy. The dancing is sexy, but without the feeling like you're actually having sex on the dance floor. As I said - refreshing. I wanted to party until the sun came up, though it might of meant losing my shoes!
Well, that said, it is now my decision to partake in some salsa lessons. I am enlisting the Brazilians for this, and it had better be good - I need something to show off at Ãno Nuevo 2006 !
Beijos,
ciao!
Monday, November 07, 2005
Isaiah 43
Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
...sometimes, sometimes Bible Roulette is a good thing.
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
...sometimes, sometimes Bible Roulette is a good thing.
Friday, November 04, 2005
Forever
Not talkin' 'bout a year
no not three or four
I don't want that kind of forever
in my life anymore
forever always seems
to be around when it begins
but forever never seems
to be around when it ends
so give me your forever
please your forever
not a day less will do
from you
People spend so much time
every single day
runnin' 'round all over town
givin' their forever away
but no not me
I won't let my forever roam
and now I hope I can find
my forever a home
so give me your forever
please your forever
not a day less will do
from you
Like a handless clock with numbers
an infinite of time
no not the forever found
only in the mind
forever always seems
to be around when things begin
but forever never seems
to be around when things end
so give me your forever
please your forever
not a day less will do
from you
- Ben Harper
Not talkin' 'bout a year
no not three or four
I don't want that kind of forever
in my life anymore
forever always seems
to be around when it begins
but forever never seems
to be around when it ends
so give me your forever
please your forever
not a day less will do
from you
People spend so much time
every single day
runnin' 'round all over town
givin' their forever away
but no not me
I won't let my forever roam
and now I hope I can find
my forever a home
so give me your forever
please your forever
not a day less will do
from you
Like a handless clock with numbers
an infinite of time
no not the forever found
only in the mind
forever always seems
to be around when things begin
but forever never seems
to be around when things end
so give me your forever
please your forever
not a day less will do
from you
- Ben Harper
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Weather Warnings - Environment Canada
"The remnants of hurricane Wilma will be racing toward the maritime provinces Tuesday as a vigorous post-tropical low pressure system. Heavy rain and high winds are likely to reach western parts of Nova Scotia Tuesday morning and to spread to the rest of the province during the day. Winds gusting to 90 km/h are forecast for all of mainland Nova Scotia with gusts as high as 110 along the atlantic coast and over the Cape Breton Highlands. Rainfall amounts in excess of 50 millimetres can be expected over the western half of the province by the end of Tuesday with further amounts likely into Wednesday."
(they could at least make it seem more exciting. sheesh)
(they could at least make it seem more exciting. sheesh)
Sunday, October 23, 2005
King of Naples, King of Spain, King of... Westphalia?
"If Buonaparte remains on the throne of France a year longer," the vicomte continued, with the air of a man who, in a matter with which he is better acquainted than anyone else, does not listen to others but follows the current of his own thoughts, "things will have gone too far..."
I found this as a part of one of those "spam email disguised as a real email" emails; the ones that have a huge compilation of random story bits all garbled together. I suppose this blog is results in me admitting that I was actually reading the garbled bits... *ahem* chalk it up to procrastination... Besides, it was worth it for this:
"with an air of a man who, in a matter with which he is better acquainted than anyone else, does not listen to others but follows the current of his own thoughts"
It's just so damn funny. That's all. I laughed out loud.
I wish I had taken more English - I think I'd be good at it writing like that. People are generally good at things they like. Except for Quantum Mechanics, but that's all relative anyways.
Relative like some descriptions of time. See, it is after 4 am right now, but it's just my culturally defined perception of 4am which which makes it feel late to me. And it is not good to be up this late. I know there are some who would disagree... I think those people should study and write my midterm on Monday for me. Those crazy, crazy people. Too bad all the crazy people I know aren't proficient in Organic Chemistry.
Hmmm... organic seems to turn up a lot in these blogs. I wonder if that is a reflection of my study habits. Strange coincidence. I'd better stop now.
I found this as a part of one of those "spam email disguised as a real email" emails; the ones that have a huge compilation of random story bits all garbled together. I suppose this blog is results in me admitting that I was actually reading the garbled bits... *ahem* chalk it up to procrastination... Besides, it was worth it for this:
"with an air of a man who, in a matter with which he is better acquainted than anyone else, does not listen to others but follows the current of his own thoughts"
It's just so damn funny. That's all. I laughed out loud.
I wish I had taken more English - I think I'd be good at it writing like that. People are generally good at things they like. Except for Quantum Mechanics, but that's all relative anyways.
Relative like some descriptions of time. See, it is after 4 am right now, but it's just my culturally defined perception of 4am which which makes it feel late to me. And it is not good to be up this late. I know there are some who would disagree... I think those people should study and write my midterm on Monday for me. Those crazy, crazy people. Too bad all the crazy people I know aren't proficient in Organic Chemistry.
Hmmm... organic seems to turn up a lot in these blogs. I wonder if that is a reflection of my study habits. Strange coincidence. I'd better stop now.
Monday, October 10, 2005
pseudopotentially imaginary
"What an abyss of uncertainty, whenever the mind feels overtaken by itself; when it, the seeker, is at the same time the dark region through which it must go seeking and where all its equipment will avail to nothing. Seek? More then that: create. It is face to face with something which does not yet exist, to which it alone can give reality and substance, which it alone can bring into the light of day."
~ Marcel Proust
When I am working on honours research every once in a while I just get so amazed at what I, we, are doing. I feel so incompetent, and yet somehow so empowered to be doing this. Like I can discover the world, right down the the core of what IS and what BEING means. And life becomes so huge and special. And I feel like someone who is bumping around in the dark, with a map I can only read iBraillele, and I know that there is a wall to trail my fingers along just beside me, but I don't need to lean on it just yet, because what I am doing is trying to find out if there is another wall to follow on the other side of me. It is hard sometimes, worrying that I might trip, or fall down some pit invisible in the darkness, but that's what it's all about isn't it? To go where no one else has, not knowing what you'll find while you are on your way...
~ Marcel Proust
When I am working on honours research every once in a while I just get so amazed at what I, we, are doing. I feel so incompetent, and yet somehow so empowered to be doing this. Like I can discover the world, right down the the core of what IS and what BEING means. And life becomes so huge and special. And I feel like someone who is bumping around in the dark, with a map I can only read iBraillele, and I know that there is a wall to trail my fingers along just beside me, but I don't need to lean on it just yet, because what I am doing is trying to find out if there is another wall to follow on the other side of me. It is hard sometimes, worrying that I might trip, or fall down some pit invisible in the darkness, but that's what it's all about isn't it? To go where no one else has, not knowing what you'll find while you are on your way...
Sunday, August 21, 2005
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Scholastic little pleasures
Well the summer is fading, and school is starting to blaze on the horizon. I actually saw a bush with fall-red leaves on it today - how crazy is that?! Oh but I love the fall here, the campus is so pretty, with the vines crawling up the walls like great shooting flames of red and orange, and the yellow sun shining on the still green grass... And the crisp air in the evenings, that lets you put on a warm vest and just enjoy... And everyone is still excited about the new school year, and all the things they'll learn, and exams are still a distant memory, and you feel invincible after you finish your first assignment, your first essay, your first evening studying in the library with Bavarian Chocolate coffee from second cup and a cushy chair...
Sometimes I think I'm dreaming all this up, its so hard to believe that this is the life I can live, the life I do live... I think of how people never get the opportunity, never even have a chance... Or even people who have all the same chances and throw them away. I guess not everyone is going to love the same things that I do, but its so hard to see it that way. How can you not fall in love with library quiet? The rustle of papers and scratching of pencils and the quiet sounds of frustrations and inspirations.
Well, school is beginning for me, and I will focus on that. My honors project has my heart beating out of my chest, and I don't even know what the thesis is yet. Just the idea of it is enough. And the thought that I have to live up to so many expectations: my professors at the Mount, Dr Zwanziger at Dalhousie, my family.... Myself. And that's the big one, myself. It killed me last year I think, that I didn't achieve what I set out to achieve. Hey, yeah I graduated, but not with what I wanted... And there really was no reason for that.
So it'll begin again in September: new year, new courses, new people... The same attitude with a lot more resolve.
I'm going to need some kind of wonderful for this one...
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Sometimes I think I'm dreaming all this up, its so hard to believe that this is the life I can live, the life I do live... I think of how people never get the opportunity, never even have a chance... Or even people who have all the same chances and throw them away. I guess not everyone is going to love the same things that I do, but its so hard to see it that way. How can you not fall in love with library quiet? The rustle of papers and scratching of pencils and the quiet sounds of frustrations and inspirations.
Well, school is beginning for me, and I will focus on that. My honors project has my heart beating out of my chest, and I don't even know what the thesis is yet. Just the idea of it is enough. And the thought that I have to live up to so many expectations: my professors at the Mount, Dr Zwanziger at Dalhousie, my family.... Myself. And that's the big one, myself. It killed me last year I think, that I didn't achieve what I set out to achieve. Hey, yeah I graduated, but not with what I wanted... And there really was no reason for that.
So it'll begin again in September: new year, new courses, new people... The same attitude with a lot more resolve.
I'm going to need some kind of wonderful for this one...
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Saturday, July 02, 2005
thinking naked...?
So it's almost 3 am on canada day and I'm still awake... and I can't even blame this one on my work schedule. I wont put in here whats keeping me up, some people actually DO read this... but I've suddenly felt very... young. Strange, because I've always felt years older than everyone around me, and lately (i.e. at work/at parties) I'm actually older than some people in the room... but somewhere along the way I missed out on some part of something (vague enough?) and I feel young and niave... not a comfortable thought, nor a familiar one. I'm not really clear on why I'm even writing in on here, but I geuss thats what blogs are for...?
It doesn't do much good to look back, unless you are going to take what you need to move foward. And if, when looking back, you don't see anything to help you move foward, then what? Well maybe I'm not looking hard enough.
Ever feel like the world has changed around you, and you've just stayed exactly the same? I dont like the feeling.
(Happy Canada Day btw - best country in the world! How sweet it is...)
It doesn't do much good to look back, unless you are going to take what you need to move foward. And if, when looking back, you don't see anything to help you move foward, then what? Well maybe I'm not looking hard enough.
Ever feel like the world has changed around you, and you've just stayed exactly the same? I dont like the feeling.
(Happy Canada Day btw - best country in the world! How sweet it is...)
Thursday, June 23, 2005
just a bunchof big meanies?
Well we did a "group forum" at work today... spent approx. two hours discussing the course and the trainer... was it productive? definetly! did I feel mean afterwards? I dunno... my first thought is "no way, you get back what you dish out"... but then, looking at a whole whiteboard full of our public gripes about this and that... well, I really think "poor trainer" . With all honesty, I do feel that what was actually recorded was genuine feelings, and not personal vindictation... none of us really set out to rip a strip off anyone (well, I think some did, but it was kept professional) (I hope). but whats to come out of it? are we going to get an extra week of training? I really doubt it. are we going to get anything out of this? I'd like to say yes, but I'm really not sure... so we're utterly lost.... but can we field the calls? probably. are we going to be scared shitless when we take the first call? definetly. do most classes go through the same feelings? yeah, I think so... I mean, sure, compared to other people we don't feel as though we've gotten the same caliber of training... but we all know how to use the systems... so theoretically we all know how to handle every single call - its all there if you can find it...
I dunno... I'd rather have more training, but I'd rather stay in training for the rest of the summer too.... sometimes you just have to suck up and do your best. and if you've got rotten lemons... well... throw them at unsuspecting pedestrians... hehe... or use them for fertilizer. whatever.
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I dunno... I'd rather have more training, but I'd rather stay in training for the rest of the summer too.... sometimes you just have to suck up and do your best. and if you've got rotten lemons... well... throw them at unsuspecting pedestrians... hehe... or use them for fertilizer. whatever.
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Saturday, June 18, 2005
maybe we could sleep in / I'll make you banana pancakes
JackJohnsonMusic.com
mmmmm... I do love music. many many many types of music. But if I had to pick a 'favourite' genre... well, it would definitely be the planet that Jack Johnson comes from. I say planet because he's in a world of his own sometimes... to me, it seems that a musician that you can listen to on repeat for 3 days straight... and then leave for a while, and then come back and realize that you love it even more so you play it for 3 more weeks straight just because you 'missed it'... well, that musician is a great one. I'm sure my roommates have been forced into loving (or at least tolerating) Jack Johnson now... hehe
But anyways, the point for the Blog - I BOUGHT A CD! hehe. I very rarely buy cds, and almost never at a real store (i.e. new in wrapping rather than second hand). In fact, in the last 6+ years the only new cd's that I have purchased are Mathew Good, and this one - Jack Johnson (In Between Dreams). That purchasing habit doesn't affect my music collection, I've still got around 9000 songs on the computer, but there's something so exciting about buying a new cd and just sitting and listening to it. not doing anything but listening for a good few hours. ahhhhh... I think I might become addicted to this, which would really be rather expensive... not so good!
Oh, on that note - Convergys is working out just fine :D Aside from some snags. i.e. we are terrifically SLOW at getting through any lessons... and really spend far too much time playing games... errr, participating in 'listening exercises'... but all in all its not so consequential... and free time is usually well spent. Did I mention that the people there are really fantastic? Not just the employer part, but my peers as well... and cute by my measures too ;) ahhhh... life is good!
well, I have a CD to continue listening to...
peace <><
mmmmm... I do love music. many many many types of music. But if I had to pick a 'favourite' genre... well, it would definitely be the planet that Jack Johnson comes from. I say planet because he's in a world of his own sometimes... to me, it seems that a musician that you can listen to on repeat for 3 days straight... and then leave for a while, and then come back and realize that you love it even more so you play it for 3 more weeks straight just because you 'missed it'... well, that musician is a great one. I'm sure my roommates have been forced into loving (or at least tolerating) Jack Johnson now... hehe
But anyways, the point for the Blog - I BOUGHT A CD! hehe. I very rarely buy cds, and almost never at a real store (i.e. new in wrapping rather than second hand). In fact, in the last 6+ years the only new cd's that I have purchased are Mathew Good, and this one - Jack Johnson (In Between Dreams). That purchasing habit doesn't affect my music collection, I've still got around 9000 songs on the computer, but there's something so exciting about buying a new cd and just sitting and listening to it. not doing anything but listening for a good few hours. ahhhhh... I think I might become addicted to this, which would really be rather expensive... not so good!
Oh, on that note - Convergys is working out just fine :D Aside from some snags. i.e. we are terrifically SLOW at getting through any lessons... and really spend far too much time playing games... errr, participating in 'listening exercises'... but all in all its not so consequential... and free time is usually well spent. Did I mention that the people there are really fantastic? Not just the employer part, but my peers as well... and cute by my measures too ;) ahhhh... life is good!
well, I have a CD to continue listening to...
peace <><
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Dance me to the end of love
dance me to your beauty with a burning violin
dance me through the panic till I'm gathered safely in...
...dance me to the end of love
Dance me on and on... we all want to be swept up and twirled around a ballroom... literally or figuratively; it is a desire of a deepest hearts. Enrapture me, captivate me... tell me you are enraptured, tell me you are captivated - by me, with me, in me... I want to be loved, I want to love...
Love... what is love? Why do we fall in love, why do we want to fall in love... from the moment that our mothers hold us in our arms, when our fathers softly brush tears from our cheek... a grandmother's kiss, a brother's protective hug, a sister's holding hand - we are surrounded by love in so many ways. And we learn to yearn for a love of our own, a lover all our own.
So often the love we seek isn't the love we find. How hard it is to see that we are destined for something more, something all encompassing. That what we call "love" is usually just a shadow of the feelings that can fill us... But when it is all you have, when you've never found something close to that intimate touch of love, how do you know you don't have it. And how can you leave it not knowing with certainty that you will find something better?
I don't have an answer for that. All the words in the world can't explain love, can't convince that there is love out there waiting for each of us. That each of us is out there waiting for love. It is a feeling as certain as the rain, as the stars, as ground under our feet. But words cannot describe feelings any more than sight can compare to taste, touch to sound.
The bridge is faith, with faith all things take on a new meaning. With faith I can believe that there is a love out there for me, for you. For you are for me. And without faith, I do not believe that you can ever understand that.
How sad it is then, that so many of us live without faith. Without love.
Because a life without love is no life at all.
dance me through the panic till I'm gathered safely in...
...dance me to the end of love
~Leonard Cohen
Dance me on and on... we all want to be swept up and twirled around a ballroom... literally or figuratively; it is a desire of a deepest hearts. Enrapture me, captivate me... tell me you are enraptured, tell me you are captivated - by me, with me, in me... I want to be loved, I want to love...
Love... what is love? Why do we fall in love, why do we want to fall in love... from the moment that our mothers hold us in our arms, when our fathers softly brush tears from our cheek... a grandmother's kiss, a brother's protective hug, a sister's holding hand - we are surrounded by love in so many ways. And we learn to yearn for a love of our own, a lover all our own.
So often the love we seek isn't the love we find. How hard it is to see that we are destined for something more, something all encompassing. That what we call "love" is usually just a shadow of the feelings that can fill us... But when it is all you have, when you've never found something close to that intimate touch of love, how do you know you don't have it. And how can you leave it not knowing with certainty that you will find something better?
I don't have an answer for that. All the words in the world can't explain love, can't convince that there is love out there waiting for each of us. That each of us is out there waiting for love. It is a feeling as certain as the rain, as the stars, as ground under our feet. But words cannot describe feelings any more than sight can compare to taste, touch to sound.
The bridge is faith, with faith all things take on a new meaning. With faith I can believe that there is a love out there for me, for you. For you are for me. And without faith, I do not believe that you can ever understand that.
How sad it is then, that so many of us live without faith. Without love.
Because a life without love is no life at all.
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
What up homes?
Ok all my homegirls and slices, here's the most recent scoop on the one, the only, me!.. ehehe, sometimes its fun to feel important, I even had a bit of a drum roll going on in the background there.. erm, anyways, what's new with Laura?
I GRADUATED!!!
Miss Laura Ruth Albrecht, Bachelor Science, Advanced Major Chemistry, Double Minor in Math and Physics
....sounds smart eh?
Other than that... I managed to get a job. I knew I would, but I suppose 'managed' isn't at all inappropriate because the posse that is Sobeys apparently doesn't want highly qualified chemists working their front line. Hmpf. But no worries, Convergy's did, and so there I will be from 4-1130 each weekday until training's up and I get slapped with some crazy wierd hours schedule. Yeah! hehe. But what can ya do, pays good eh? Plus I know some great people that work there.
So what else... Got a confirmation on my honors position at Dalhousie... yaa! I'm good to go, just have to maneuver the mounds of paperwork, which aint so bad since I have the regular work hours off so I can track down all the appropriate people.
And if we ever get some sunshine, I'll be free all day. But that wont happen, with all this rain why would we get sunshine??
anyway, since it will be my first day of training today I probably should get a start on that policy stuff they want me to read... *gag*
peace out babes,
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I GRADUATED!!!
Miss Laura Ruth Albrecht, Bachelor Science, Advanced Major Chemistry, Double Minor in Math and Physics
....sounds smart eh?
Other than that... I managed to get a job. I knew I would, but I suppose 'managed' isn't at all inappropriate because the posse that is Sobeys apparently doesn't want highly qualified chemists working their front line. Hmpf. But no worries, Convergy's did, and so there I will be from 4-1130 each weekday until training's up and I get slapped with some crazy wierd hours schedule. Yeah! hehe. But what can ya do, pays good eh? Plus I know some great people that work there.
So what else... Got a confirmation on my honors position at Dalhousie... yaa! I'm good to go, just have to maneuver the mounds of paperwork, which aint so bad since I have the regular work hours off so I can track down all the appropriate people.
And if we ever get some sunshine, I'll be free all day. But that wont happen, with all this rain why would we get sunshine??
anyway, since it will be my first day of training today I probably should get a start on that policy stuff they want me to read... *gag*
peace out babes,
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Friday, April 29, 2005
+Puppy attack!
So I was assaulted by a puppy today. Crazy thing! Ran right up to me and started lickin and biting me... It was perfect! Except that the owner was very female. *sigh* so much for the romantic idea of meeting mr boy in the park because of a cute dog. haha. Cant believe I'm putting this in. I'm such a hopeless romantic.
it was a beautiful day at the Commons 'tho... I meandered around and ended up walking there! bit of a hike from where I live, but it didn't seem too bad. I needed to clear my head and just, get out. You'd think that with Jo here I'd be just ecstatically going out of my mind with happiness... hmmmm we made bread together. that was fun. and we are going to an ordination tomorrow... I hope it is nice.
well, squares are in the oven. yeah! I've watched so many movies in the past few days I don't know what to do with myself. I want to go to the art gallery tomorrow, wonder how much it is... Or like, read on a beach, yeah, that would rock. oh summer where art thou?
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it was a beautiful day at the Commons 'tho... I meandered around and ended up walking there! bit of a hike from where I live, but it didn't seem too bad. I needed to clear my head and just, get out. You'd think that with Jo here I'd be just ecstatically going out of my mind with happiness... hmmmm we made bread together. that was fun. and we are going to an ordination tomorrow... I hope it is nice.
well, squares are in the oven. yeah! I've watched so many movies in the past few days I don't know what to do with myself. I want to go to the art gallery tomorrow, wonder how much it is... Or like, read on a beach, yeah, that would rock. oh summer where art thou?
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
YAY
FANTASTIC News! Lesek, oh dear friend of mine, has been given a position at Ocean Nutrition Canada, as a scientist/chemist! WaHoo! this means great things for her, ANNND it means that there IS hope for all of us freshly graduated Chemists who are seeking something to do with our lives :D well, for me that wont begin until next year, but thats ok - the opportunities are out there!
It also means that I may have an opportunity to work with Dr Ian Pottie as a research assistant for the summer. Ugh. I dont know how I feel about this... it might hurt employer-employee relationship if I am constantly tempted to tell him off.... but! a Job is a job, and a research job is a million times better than anything I'd expected... oh God is so good to me, I do NOT deserve such an opportunity. .wow. AND I'm pretty sure I passed that damn exam. not with flying colors by any stretch, but i bet i knew 50% dammit. hehe, it'd be funny if I had to actually work for him and he failed me... What was that? You spent 3 weeks on that product and I WASNT supposed to add acetone?? Oh gosh, sorry - geuss there WAS a reason you had to fail me... hehehehe...
well, happy news all around... now i need to go study for Modern... or Materials... I have no ambition to study Modern, sorry Kathy.
(yaaaaaay) <><
It also means that I may have an opportunity to work with Dr Ian Pottie as a research assistant for the summer. Ugh. I dont know how I feel about this... it might hurt employer-employee relationship if I am constantly tempted to tell him off.... but! a Job is a job, and a research job is a million times better than anything I'd expected... oh God is so good to me, I do NOT deserve such an opportunity. .wow. AND I'm pretty sure I passed that damn exam. not with flying colors by any stretch, but i bet i knew 50% dammit. hehe, it'd be funny if I had to actually work for him and he failed me... What was that? You spent 3 weeks on that product and I WASNT supposed to add acetone?? Oh gosh, sorry - geuss there WAS a reason you had to fail me... hehehehe...
well, happy news all around... now i need to go study for Modern... or Materials... I have no ambition to study Modern, sorry Kathy.
(yaaaaaay) <><
Sunday, April 17, 2005
organic-ick
studyin! and pretty much sticking to it today... the light is at the end of the tunnel I tell you, cant quite see it yet, but you just sort of know when youre approaching it... f
funny how when i'm studying - all the online tutorials - and randomly i get these revelations, and its like 'oh! THATS why that does that rather than that... ooooh! i'm such a dummy"...
prime example: NaOH acts as a base or a nucleophile (ya, i just learned that too). whats the difference you ask? (or dont but you get to hear it anyways). well! when its a base it strips off the most acidic hydrogen. when its a nucleophile it attacks a electrophilic carbon. ITS THAT EASY. man. i really dont know how i made it through 2nd year organic.
not that i'm not smart - i really think i am (hehe) but somehow nothing clicked in this course. and as much as i can blame it on the wannabe proff's bad teaching, there is the element of my own incomprehension of the basics... like, you're never going to be able to do integrals if you cant do algebra. plain and simple. so, master the abc's before you try the xyz's.... or, in this case, better decide whats a nucleophile before you try and tackle the epoxide reaction. yeah baby yeah. bring it on dienols, BRING IT ON!
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funny how when i'm studying - all the online tutorials - and randomly i get these revelations, and its like 'oh! THATS why that does that rather than that... ooooh! i'm such a dummy"...
prime example: NaOH acts as a base or a nucleophile (ya, i just learned that too). whats the difference you ask? (or dont but you get to hear it anyways). well! when its a base it strips off the most acidic hydrogen. when its a nucleophile it attacks a electrophilic carbon. ITS THAT EASY. man. i really dont know how i made it through 2nd year organic.
not that i'm not smart - i really think i am (hehe) but somehow nothing clicked in this course. and as much as i can blame it on the wannabe proff's bad teaching, there is the element of my own incomprehension of the basics... like, you're never going to be able to do integrals if you cant do algebra. plain and simple. so, master the abc's before you try the xyz's.... or, in this case, better decide whats a nucleophile before you try and tackle the epoxide reaction. yeah baby yeah. bring it on dienols, BRING IT ON!
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Saturday, April 16, 2005
aaauggg
i'd just like to say that rather than studying for this one crucial exam, that i loath the concept of writing, and have thus decided to Ace so that i can prove to myself once and for all that i AM a genius... rather than studying so that i can shove my A+ up toilet-face's ASS... rather than being the smart intelligent person that i pretend to be...
I've spent the entire day dicking around and not studying
ya. thats me. the quantum chemical loving advanced chemistry major. I SUCK ASS
*sigh* you can blog really fast through the google toolbar... i think that my down-fall was planned before my birth.
I've spent the entire day dicking around and not studying
ya. thats me. the quantum chemical loving advanced chemistry major. I SUCK ASS
*sigh* you can blog really fast through the google toolbar... i think that my down-fall was planned before my birth.
Exams!
Woo! Its exam time again! and can you guess what that means?? yup - Laura is going to be posting blogs again. This is one of the best forms or procrastination you know.
so today was absolutely beautiful - and I stayed inside *sigh*. I cant even say that I was studying all day. I was pretending to be studying, but it didn't really work out... to easy to be distracted here. I've got msn, and the phone, and the fridge (hehe) and the computer and bed. oh bed is a really bad distraction. I actually fell asleep in my chair this afternoon. *my chair - I should say nikkis chair because I borrowed hers, thought it would be better for studying, boy was I wrong!
I did get a bit done.. I'm onto reactions of aromatics/benzene. I've decided its not so much that I hate organic, its just that I didn't bother to learn it all properly the first time, so when it comes to applying the knowledge, I'm lacking. but I've got 3 solid days to study! well, 2 now. the exam is tuesday morning. so I have all of tonight at least to learn the background, so I can start on the rest. the other problem, of course, is that I have to memorize a lot of reactions and names etc. boooooring. I'd rather memorize quantum mechanics. funny to think of it, beause theres memorization involved in both, I just don't LIKE organic chemistry.
Mr Wannabe-A-Professor doesn't help a whole lot tho... grrr... Insensitive incompassionate stupid arrogant bastard... AAAAUUGHHHH. wewf . that was building up... aha. he wont even tell us if the exam breakdown is even or more weighted on the last stuff. you know why? BECAUSE HE IS A LAZY ASSHOLE. wewf again. hes afraid of making it not quite what he said and then.. and then what? what the hell are WE gonna do? man once I finish this I'm gonna be sooo happy.
organic. modern. materials. I can do it I know I can
the 22nd baby I'm going to crawl into several bottles of gin and I'm not coming up for air until sunday morning, I swear. mmmmmgin... I hereby forfeit all responsibility for stupid things I do. I'm allowed. I will be done 4 years of school and on my way to recieving my advanced major in chemistry.. providing I can afford to pay off my library fines, hehehe...
well.... reactions of substituted benzene awaits *gag me*
<>< peace
so today was absolutely beautiful - and I stayed inside *sigh*. I cant even say that I was studying all day. I was pretending to be studying, but it didn't really work out... to easy to be distracted here. I've got msn, and the phone, and the fridge (hehe) and the computer and bed. oh bed is a really bad distraction. I actually fell asleep in my chair this afternoon. *my chair - I should say nikkis chair because I borrowed hers, thought it would be better for studying, boy was I wrong!
I did get a bit done.. I'm onto reactions of aromatics/benzene. I've decided its not so much that I hate organic, its just that I didn't bother to learn it all properly the first time, so when it comes to applying the knowledge, I'm lacking. but I've got 3 solid days to study! well, 2 now. the exam is tuesday morning. so I have all of tonight at least to learn the background, so I can start on the rest. the other problem, of course, is that I have to memorize a lot of reactions and names etc. boooooring. I'd rather memorize quantum mechanics. funny to think of it, beause theres memorization involved in both, I just don't LIKE organic chemistry.
Mr Wannabe-A-Professor doesn't help a whole lot tho... grrr... Insensitive incompassionate stupid arrogant bastard... AAAAUUGHHHH. wewf . that was building up... aha. he wont even tell us if the exam breakdown is even or more weighted on the last stuff. you know why? BECAUSE HE IS A LAZY ASSHOLE. wewf again. hes afraid of making it not quite what he said and then.. and then what? what the hell are WE gonna do? man once I finish this I'm gonna be sooo happy.
organic. modern. materials. I can do it I know I can
the 22nd baby I'm going to crawl into several bottles of gin and I'm not coming up for air until sunday morning, I swear. mmmmmgin... I hereby forfeit all responsibility for stupid things I do. I'm allowed. I will be done 4 years of school and on my way to recieving my advanced major in chemistry.. providing I can afford to pay off my library fines, hehehe...
well.... reactions of substituted benzene awaits *gag me*
<>< peace
Monday, March 14, 2005
ordinary is boring
i've just realized: i never post about, like, regular everyday stuff. hehe. i wouldnt want any one to think my life is boring... au contrair mon cheri - live is quite exciting for me. just not on the same scale as the stars... lol
but to bore it down...
i think i found a supervisor for honours research - wowie. PhD here i come! YAY
and. i'm craving beer right now. the instigator of this shall remain nameless. *cough* Mark*cough*
had fun on the bus today. ah i have fun on the bus every day. there are so many wierd people on there. and i ALWAYS see someone that i swear i know, but just cant remember, and i always feel like a snob for NOT saying hi... when i really should remember them... ahhh, yeah, so if you see me, and i totally snub you - well, its not personal at all. really. really really. anyways, there was uber cute boy on bus today. the trendy with nice jeans and messy hair kinda cute. yum. and a really adorable babie with lots of curly fine black hair. there are always adorable babies.
hmm, what else.... lab with Tony was fun. lol, lab with Tony is always fun. no ab flash today tho, heh, i think i'll manage Sharon ;-) sad in its patheticness.
i need to find a smart boy. a really smart boy. mmm... PhD's turn me on, lmao - i'm such a snob!!
ah, thats why i dont post about my life - its not flattering!... lol, i'm going to stop now, before this gets any worse.
<>< peace loves you
but to bore it down...
i think i found a supervisor for honours research - wowie. PhD here i come! YAY
and. i'm craving beer right now. the instigator of this shall remain nameless. *cough* Mark*cough*
had fun on the bus today. ah i have fun on the bus every day. there are so many wierd people on there. and i ALWAYS see someone that i swear i know, but just cant remember, and i always feel like a snob for NOT saying hi... when i really should remember them... ahhh, yeah, so if you see me, and i totally snub you - well, its not personal at all. really. really really. anyways, there was uber cute boy on bus today. the trendy with nice jeans and messy hair kinda cute. yum. and a really adorable babie with lots of curly fine black hair. there are always adorable babies.
hmm, what else.... lab with Tony was fun. lol, lab with Tony is always fun. no ab flash today tho, heh, i think i'll manage Sharon ;-) sad in its patheticness.
i need to find a smart boy. a really smart boy. mmm... PhD's turn me on, lmao - i'm such a snob!!
ah, thats why i dont post about my life - its not flattering!... lol, i'm going to stop now, before this gets any worse.
<>< peace loves you
Dancin when the stars go blue....
where do you go when you're lonely? where do you go when you're blue?.... yeah yeah, I'll follow you....
*I'm listening to a Corr's song feat. Bono from U2... I love U2. And Stars. I really love stars.
the intensity of the universe amazes me every second. We are so happy going along with our lives, with the immediate importance of whatever we see in front of us; be it this instant, next week, or 30 years from now. But when do we ever stop to really contemplate the enormity of what surrounds us? to me, 10 years is a long time. heck, a week is a long time. I have a difficult time imagining a lifetime. an even harder time picturing a century, and its, well, impossible to imagine a million years. but, that is just what is needed to comprehend just how BIG the world is.
we all know how fast light is. At least, we all have an idea that its fast, only the science nerds can spout off that its about 3 x 10^8 m/s. thats 300 000 000 meters per second. see that? 300 million meters per second. ok, that's fast. light can travel around the earth in about 0.004 seconds. or, to put it even easier, a seagull flying at the speed of light could go around the earth 23 times in one second. *wewf* all that crazy calculator math. so I've got this seagull flying super fast. now back to the stars. the stars are hundreds of light years away. Polaris (the North Star) is 680 light years away. Now to define a light year: its the distance light can travel in a year. Lets go back to the seagull. Mr Seagull is flying at 300 million m/s. there are about 32 000 000 seconds in a year. so 300 million meters per second, times 32 million seconds in a year is, well, a lot of meters. 95 with 14 zeros added on. And thats just the distance travelled in ONE lightyear. so, if Bob the seagull were to leave Polaris, and travel to earth, it would take him a really long time. because stars are really far away. And those are just the ones we can see. what about the rest that are too far away? or the ones that have just formed and their light hasn't reached us yet? And some of these stars don't even exist anymore - we just see the light that's still traveling.
so when I think about stars, and how far away they are... its rather mind blowing, to put it mildly
now I know that we can;t all wander around with the enormity of the universe filling up our thoughts. that would make us all crazy people. but we cant ignore it either. it puts our presence here on little Earth, only the 3rd planet from Mr Big Sun, who in reality is not so big at all, in perspective. And, to get religious, it puts the size of a Creator who could even conceive of it all, into something resembling perspective.
the idea that the world stretches out beyond our capability to imagine its limits in anything but a mathematical term fascinates me.
plus. stars are beautiful : )
so if you see some strange person wandering around looking UP rather than down where her feet are going... umm.. pull me out of traffic? pls? ;)
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*I'm listening to a Corr's song feat. Bono from U2... I love U2. And Stars. I really love stars.
the intensity of the universe amazes me every second. We are so happy going along with our lives, with the immediate importance of whatever we see in front of us; be it this instant, next week, or 30 years from now. But when do we ever stop to really contemplate the enormity of what surrounds us? to me, 10 years is a long time. heck, a week is a long time. I have a difficult time imagining a lifetime. an even harder time picturing a century, and its, well, impossible to imagine a million years. but, that is just what is needed to comprehend just how BIG the world is.
we all know how fast light is. At least, we all have an idea that its fast, only the science nerds can spout off that its about 3 x 10^8 m/s. thats 300 000 000 meters per second. see that? 300 million meters per second. ok, that's fast. light can travel around the earth in about 0.004 seconds. or, to put it even easier, a seagull flying at the speed of light could go around the earth 23 times in one second. *wewf* all that crazy calculator math. so I've got this seagull flying super fast. now back to the stars. the stars are hundreds of light years away. Polaris (the North Star) is 680 light years away. Now to define a light year: its the distance light can travel in a year. Lets go back to the seagull. Mr Seagull is flying at 300 million m/s. there are about 32 000 000 seconds in a year. so 300 million meters per second, times 32 million seconds in a year is, well, a lot of meters. 95 with 14 zeros added on. And thats just the distance travelled in ONE lightyear. so, if Bob the seagull were to leave Polaris, and travel to earth, it would take him a really long time. because stars are really far away. And those are just the ones we can see. what about the rest that are too far away? or the ones that have just formed and their light hasn't reached us yet? And some of these stars don't even exist anymore - we just see the light that's still traveling.
so when I think about stars, and how far away they are... its rather mind blowing, to put it mildly
now I know that we can;t all wander around with the enormity of the universe filling up our thoughts. that would make us all crazy people. but we cant ignore it either. it puts our presence here on little Earth, only the 3rd planet from Mr Big Sun, who in reality is not so big at all, in perspective. And, to get religious, it puts the size of a Creator who could even conceive of it all, into something resembling perspective.
the idea that the world stretches out beyond our capability to imagine its limits in anything but a mathematical term fascinates me.
plus. stars are beautiful : )
so if you see some strange person wandering around looking UP rather than down where her feet are going... umm.. pull me out of traffic? pls? ;)
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Hey look! Over there! (quick before reality catches up)
Well its been a little while, so maybe an update on the fast and exciting life of Laura ...right.
its spring break now, so I should either be sunning on a beach or studiously reducing my work-load for the rest of the term. hehe. Funny joke. Rather than that, I've spent the past few days either drinking, laying in bed hungover (ok, that was only Sunday, really...) or messing around on this bloody computer. Small secret - I randomly play computer games, and get sucked in! *gasp*. I've got a lot on my mind I guess, and I don't really want to think about any of it, so, well, I'm not. Yeah! Reject reality! sheesh
I bought a book at the hospital the other day - Gai-Jin by James Clavell. its the only one in his Asian Saga I haven't read yet, or own for that matter, so it was a good find. and at only 2 bucks! cant go wrong. Read until the wee hours of the morning, and justified it because it was borderline educational.
I was in the hospital because my grandfather is in there, suffering out his remaining time on this earth. I feel so numb about that. I think that that's why I can write it down so coldly. It only hits me randomly, like when I see pictures of him happy and healthy, and I just break down. Life is so unfair. I've been waiting at home for the phone to ring. Jumping out of my skin whenever it does, and dreading what news will be on the other line. Quick - find me a way to ignore reality again.
I will admit that I left the apartment today: I went out to the bank and paid off my tuition - finally. Well, at least at one university. I'm going to have to marry an accountant, I'm useless when it comes to money. Like, pathetically useless. oh well, I guess we all have to have our weaknesses.
hm. Started a short story last night, I'm definitely not going to post it, and I realized that I have to get over all the stupid little things in life. its about a girl, and a guy. I changed the ending tho. Surprised? How could you be, you didn't know how the first story ended. Well, you might, but not likely. Anyways. I cant think of anything else to bore you with. Scroll down and read the science jokes, they're funny. Really!
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its spring break now, so I should either be sunning on a beach or studiously reducing my work-load for the rest of the term. hehe. Funny joke. Rather than that, I've spent the past few days either drinking, laying in bed hungover (ok, that was only Sunday, really...) or messing around on this bloody computer. Small secret - I randomly play computer games, and get sucked in! *gasp*. I've got a lot on my mind I guess, and I don't really want to think about any of it, so, well, I'm not. Yeah! Reject reality! sheesh
I bought a book at the hospital the other day - Gai-Jin by James Clavell. its the only one in his Asian Saga I haven't read yet, or own for that matter, so it was a good find. and at only 2 bucks! cant go wrong. Read until the wee hours of the morning, and justified it because it was borderline educational.
I was in the hospital because my grandfather is in there, suffering out his remaining time on this earth. I feel so numb about that. I think that that's why I can write it down so coldly. It only hits me randomly, like when I see pictures of him happy and healthy, and I just break down. Life is so unfair. I've been waiting at home for the phone to ring. Jumping out of my skin whenever it does, and dreading what news will be on the other line. Quick - find me a way to ignore reality again.
I will admit that I left the apartment today: I went out to the bank and paid off my tuition - finally. Well, at least at one university. I'm going to have to marry an accountant, I'm useless when it comes to money. Like, pathetically useless. oh well, I guess we all have to have our weaknesses.
hm. Started a short story last night, I'm definitely not going to post it, and I realized that I have to get over all the stupid little things in life. its about a girl, and a guy. I changed the ending tho. Surprised? How could you be, you didn't know how the first story ended. Well, you might, but not likely. Anyways. I cant think of anything else to bore you with. Scroll down and read the science jokes, they're funny. Really!
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Monday, January 17, 2005
geeky jokes
So Heisenberg is driving down the highway in his fancy car. He looks up and sees behind him a police car flashing red and blue lights. Heisenberg pulls over and rolls down his window. The policeman comes up and asks him: "Sir, do you have any idea how fast you were going?!"
Heisenberg replies: " No officer, but I could certainly tell you where I was!"
heh heh heh
(more!)
How many physical chemists does it take to wash a beaker?
None. That's what organic chemists are for!
A physicist, biologist and a chemist were going to the ocean for the first time.
The physicist saw the ocean and was fascinated by the waves. He said he wanted to do some research on the fluid dynamics of the waves and walked into the ocean. Obviously he was drowned and never returned.
The biologist said he wanted to do research on the flora and fauna inside the ocean and walked inside the ocean. He too, never returned.
The chemist waited for a long time and afterwards, wrote the observation, "The physicist and the biologist are soluble in ocean water".
Chemists do it periodically on table.
Electrochemists do it with greater potential.
Polymer chemists do it in chains.
Heisenberg replies: " No officer, but I could certainly tell you where I was!"
heh heh heh
(more!)
How many physical chemists does it take to wash a beaker?
None. That's what organic chemists are for!
A physicist, biologist and a chemist were going to the ocean for the first time.
The physicist saw the ocean and was fascinated by the waves. He said he wanted to do some research on the fluid dynamics of the waves and walked into the ocean. Obviously he was drowned and never returned.
The biologist said he wanted to do research on the flora and fauna inside the ocean and walked inside the ocean. He too, never returned.
The chemist waited for a long time and afterwards, wrote the observation, "The physicist and the biologist are soluble in ocean water".
Chemists do it periodically on table.
Electrochemists do it with greater potential.
Polymer chemists do it in chains.
Sunday, January 09, 2005
bah humbug?
ugh. i dont even know where to begin. this is a boredom post - i simply have nothing else to do. likely it will turn quickly to me complaining about life, the universe and stuff like that. get over it or stop reading if you dont want to hear it. i dont habitually complain. not really. i mean, sure, there's always the little things that we "whine" about... but never in real seriousness. i know that its not the end of the world that they were out of my favorite whatever at the grocery store. and i wont die because the bus was 5 minutes late. the little inconveniences dont really get to me. and why should they? i am an intelligent and happy individual, healthy in mind body and spirit... right? i know that my lot in life could be a lot worse, what right do i have to complain.
but no one really has a 'right' to complain, so i will do it anyways. i've had just the worst... everything... for what feels like so long. its like me and the rest of me have lost touch. like something is missing, and i know what it is, but i cant get it. even though i know that it is most certainly in my reach - should i choose to extend my hand but a little. (i've had a sudden recollection of michelangelo's 'Hands' and recieved a true awareness of the intent there.) is this why all this crap stuff is going on? exams were -relatively- horrible, vancouver wasnt so hot (hello new years? what happened there?!), i gained 10 pounds, schools started with all its hardness, and i lost 50 dollars worth of underwear today (yes, new). so what now? i want to scream, but i've never really been the screaming type. and somehow a quiet "fuck it" just doesnt cut it. its not just the above grievences, theres lots more... sharon, mom, vancouver in the spring, boys... its like, all the bits i never complained about have coalesced into lots of big things. and i am terrifically unprepared to deal. i miss jo terribly, sometimes you just need a true friend with a shoulder to cry on. dammit. i dont cry!
this is getting too personal. not for all the strangers, but for the aquaintances who can follow links here. sorry people, i'm not really a whiney wimp who unloads her problems so that she can milk sympathy expressions. hell, i dont even like doing that on the damn msn name. people need to be able deal with their problems, not dump them on the first available ear. people also shouldnt snatch unattended shopping bags.
well. the cereal is gone. hell, i didnt even get any groceries today. ha! there goes the extra 10! lol. well, there is always a bright side to things, and things really do happen for a reason (like, the bus we would of caught just might of exploded! who knows?). and that is enough for a while. and yes - i will be happy very soon. once my luck turns around a bit. or i turn myself around and see the good luck behind me. did that make sense? ah.
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but no one really has a 'right' to complain, so i will do it anyways. i've had just the worst... everything... for what feels like so long. its like me and the rest of me have lost touch. like something is missing, and i know what it is, but i cant get it. even though i know that it is most certainly in my reach - should i choose to extend my hand but a little. (i've had a sudden recollection of michelangelo's 'Hands' and recieved a true awareness of the intent there.) is this why all this crap stuff is going on? exams were -relatively- horrible, vancouver wasnt so hot (hello new years? what happened there?!), i gained 10 pounds, schools started with all its hardness, and i lost 50 dollars worth of underwear today (yes, new). so what now? i want to scream, but i've never really been the screaming type. and somehow a quiet "fuck it" just doesnt cut it. its not just the above grievences, theres lots more... sharon, mom, vancouver in the spring, boys... its like, all the bits i never complained about have coalesced into lots of big things. and i am terrifically unprepared to deal. i miss jo terribly, sometimes you just need a true friend with a shoulder to cry on. dammit. i dont cry!
this is getting too personal. not for all the strangers, but for the aquaintances who can follow links here. sorry people, i'm not really a whiney wimp who unloads her problems so that she can milk sympathy expressions. hell, i dont even like doing that on the damn msn name. people need to be able deal with their problems, not dump them on the first available ear. people also shouldnt snatch unattended shopping bags.
well. the cereal is gone. hell, i didnt even get any groceries today. ha! there goes the extra 10! lol. well, there is always a bright side to things, and things really do happen for a reason (like, the bus we would of caught just might of exploded! who knows?). and that is enough for a while. and yes - i will be happy very soon. once my luck turns around a bit. or i turn myself around and see the good luck behind me. did that make sense? ah.
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