Sunny Days

i went to class, in case it was really a question... we didnt do much, the other girl in my group wasnt prepared either. shes got like and education degree and something else too, some art thing. theres so many people in this class with so much more experience then me. a lot of ESL students (english as a second language--is that the right short form?) so they've got at least one language--and the culture associated with it--under their belt; and now theyre immersing themselves in an other. sometimes i feel like i've so limited myself by choosing this chem/physics degree. i cant go or do anything until i finish, and theres just SO MUCH i want to do. its almost like i'm not ready for another year of school... maybe i'm afraid that it will go even worse then this year did, better to avoid then fail. (thats not true, i dont believe it) well, i'm putting it off like nothing else anyways.

Today is sunny and beautiful. and i'm inside. cant figure out the password for the laptop, so i'm going to read on the couch (rather then write this essay OR go outside, hurrah procrastination). I skipped out on a sociable bbq and took a bus home from church this morning. i picked up a copy of the coast on the way... and totally missed my bus stop! so engrossed in the articles, it was funny i'm sure. there was a bit about not picking the flowers the city plants. damn, i felt guilty... i love those flowers. if it comes off a bush is it still stealing? (really pushing to get some guilt free lilacs) aside from the flowers tho, summer has me so excited, and so full of plans... going to the art gallery, shakespeare by the sea, out for appetizers and walking the boardwalk... camping, the beach, the beach, the beach (i'm really excited about the beach)... so much to do. I really am lucky to live in this beautiful city, and to have so many amazing opportunities presented to me. i suppose i'm not falling too short on this 'experience' thing... i might speak horrible french, but i still have enormous appreciation of culture and beauty, and people.

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