Its insane how you can know something about a person for sooo long, and not even realize it until one day it sits you right on your ass. we let ourselves get into these relationships, and then make excuses for all the bad things, because deep down 'they're a nice person'... sometimes i really don't know. having the greatest of intentions and actually being a nice person are two very different things. maybe i have a convoluted perspective of what life and people should be like, maybe i expect too much out of a relationship; but is it too much to expect that people are considerate--and willing to put the other person first? or to trust that they wont say inappropriate things about someone else because it makes them look good? whatever happened to self-sacrifice? are people really that self-absorbed? i suppose i have a really naive view of life and the people in it. i've held on to the idea that you can expect the best of people and not be disappointed so long that maybe i missed something uber important along the way... like you CANT. arg. how do you tell someone you love that you think they're a totally self absorbed person who cant see past their own little world. and that these actions are just going to leave them alone and unhappy in the end, because eventually people wont put up with it...eventually YOU wont put up with it. i've been disappointed again and again, i dont know how much more i can take. its hard to love people like that, God give me strength... and tact when i bring it up. God give me enough tact to make up for everyone else's lack (hey that almost rhymes)
oompf!
on a brighter note... my english class just got ten times better! group work with the only hot guy in the class, score! lol. i wonder what forces were at work behind that... even tho i suckered myself into doing all the work.. ah well.
A is for apple... and essays!
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